Oddech (Breath)

oil on canvas, October 2023

I remember, some time ago, I was quite scared to use more brightful colors.

Because if you use brightful colors, people gonna look at them.

And so for a moment I was afraid it’s gonna be “too much”. I was afraid I’m gonna screw the painting up, it’s not gonna be good enough, or I’m gonna mix the wrong colors. And then I realised: there are no wrong colors to mix, there is only a wrong way to think of them. And there is never “too much” – it’s just the way we were conditioned to think when something doesn’t fit the boxes we know.

So I decided to let it go; of anything I was thinking of. I just took the colors I loved, like blue and yellow and decided they’ll make a background. And then I decided I want the face to be full of colors: to be different than anything I have done before. And so I added orange. 

And so the colors I decided to use here, for the first time, they set me free. They had let me breath. 

Sometimes, what we are afraid of, is the only thing that can set us free. 

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